Me Me Me

Year 1 over.

Joy, can't explain it.

Tired.

Lonely.

Currently trying to finish reading FF's book.

I have so many things to say.

Happy thoughts, misery, hatred.

But i hate how sensitive people are nowadays, i might offend them.

You're already offended, aren't you?

I don't know what i want.

My mind won't stop and tell me what i want. What i want to do.

I don't like followers.

I don't like people having the same things as me.

I don't like people trying to copy my style.

I don't like how people take me for granted.

I don't like girls who only compliments their "girlfriends"

I don't like how people still judge others even when they say they don't judge people.

I don't like not having anybody to talk to.

I don't like how boring i am because all i wanna talk about is Art, Music, Architecture, Design and video games.

I don't like pretending to be fine.

I don't like you

I don't like it when people ask me if i was ok

I don't like how i tend to avoid people when they got close to me

I don't like sharing FarahF with other people

I don't like how i only choose certain people to be close with

I don't like how people still don't seem to understand me

I like how awesome i am

I like how i self-thought myself to play the guitar and piano.

I like how humble i am to let other people have their glory when i accomplish what they have accomplished weeks before they did but never got recognized for it.

I like how i don't like to take credit.

I like how i'm able to paint and draw

I like how i am able to stand on my own

I like how i don't have to rely on anybody.

I like how FarahF is my ONLY movie buddy.

I like how selfish i can be sometimes.

I like how vulnerable i am sometimes.

I like how I don't give a fuck of what people think of me.

I like how people who still can't figure out who i really am even after knowing me for months or years.

I like how i never told people what i just thought of myself.

I don't mind being left alone.

I don't mind being the one at the back of the picture.

I don't mind that the person i care for have no idea how much i care for him.

I don't mind that i'm not the popular one amongst my friends.

I don't mind having only 100+ friends in FB, i don't need that much friends either.

I miss home.

I miss my room.

I miss love.

I miss FarahF

I miss Pudding

I miss having a family

I miss happiness

I miss living

I am numb

I am exhausted

I am exuberant

I am sad

I am in misery

I am skeptical.

See, told you that my mind won't stop.

I love how artistic all their open session videos are.
Love people with real talent.

In 5 days time, all i wanna do is paint, play video games and slack until Year 2 comes.
I'm tired of sleeping on the studio's cold floor.
Submission week starts tomorrow. Gonna prepare for the worst.

Sorry, but i can't live under your rule.
It's ok, i've gotten used to being alone.
My whole life i've been alone.

19

I miss this.

Wanna go bake myself a cake.