Geylang, sipaku Geylang.

Well hello dick heads! It's been some time since i have updated properly, so here i am. I'm just lucky to be breathing still. I never thought i would survive today.

Today, my mother dragged me to geylang. Actually yesterday ar because 2 o'clock in the morning already. But whatever. I was suppose to be studying for my exams on Monday but, my mother literally dragged me to geylang today. And man, i HATE it. If you know me well enough, you would already know that i hate crowds. I hate crowded places. I HATE places with ALOT of people. Yes, let me repeat it again, I HATE CROWDS.

I was freaking out in the taxi when i saw how crowded Geylang was. But too bad, there was no way of turning back. Being in a subconscious state, i manage to survive the day. My mom brought a few clothes for my brother first because his was cheap and easy to choose from. He is not the picky type of person, where else i was. Mom brought him like 4 pieces of clothes. Genuinely speaking, i wasn't jealous. I couldn't care less of owning a 'Baju Kurong'(traditional costume). Being a fussy person as i am, i took some time to find my baju kurong. And everytime i came across the one that i wanted, i would ask how much it cost. And if it exceeds $40 i wouldn't buy it. Then i came across this Kebaya(yet another traditional costume) and i really like it. And it cost $56++. I said no to it. My mom was pissed alright. She said it was an OK price. OK price?! I almost got into an agrument with my mom about buying something expensive that i'll probably gonna wear it once or twice.

Then, my mom brought me to this shop and ask me to try on this particular baju kurong. I was quite pleased with it but i had an issue of choosing the colour of the baju kurong. My cousin told me to get the white one, while my mother told me to get the blue one. But i sticked to one colour, black. Then as usual, i asked my mother the cost of the baju kurong. But she tired changing the subject and told me to wait outside. When she already paid for it, i asked how much it was and i was damn shocked when she said $90. $90 leh! Wah, i seriously felt guilty buying that baju kurong. But my mom kept saying it's ok. OK?! $90 is not NOT ok, ok!

Imagine how many things i can spent with that $90. Walau! i wish i could return the baju kurong and get the money back. Still, my mother insist on buying another baju kurong. After that $90 baju kurong, how could i want to buy another one?! I kept refusing everytime she tried to make me buy another one. So what if i only have one baju kurong, i don't care. I'm not a huge fan of baju kurong. Wah, i seriously feel bad buying that damn expensive baju kurong.

Ok, enough about the baju kurong and back to the part of me hating huge crowds. As we all know, Geylang will forever be packed with people. And when it comes to these kind of situation, people may get selfish and fucking rude. And i can't tolerate people who are rude. It really pisses me off when people accidentally pushed me without saying sorry and continued walking with thier nose up high. Wah, damn arrogant! Some even gave the 'what the fuck,bitch?!' look. Tsk tsk tsk. The nerves of some people.

When it got worse and people just wont give way, i literally started to push them. I'm too tired to elaborate on that. Overall, i'm just glad i manage to survive today. And i would rather kill myself if i were to go to Geylang again. Yes, i hate Geylang THAT much.

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Oh great, i lost another of my favourite guitar pick.
DAMN! I have no idea how many times i have lost my picks.
And i still hate myself for losing my lucky 13 guitar pick my brother brought me.
Best guitar pick EVER.

Right...
I'm gonna turn myself in now.
Got alot to study tomorrow.
DAMN IT!

.e.n.d.

I Miss You.

"Hey dad
I'm writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart"
- Emotionless - Good Charlotte

I'm starting to feel the feeling when you missed someone you hate.
Do you get me?

.e.n.d.

GRADUATED!

18th of September, which is today, marked the day that i realised that it is the start of a new beginning. And yes, we graduated today. 4 years ago, i thought getting to sec 4 would be like forever. But now i've realise that time really flies. It felt as if it was only a year ago that i got into Springfield Secondary School. And it's very hard for me to part away from the people that i'm really comfortable with.

After a long, tiring, dramatic day at school, we finally had to register our names and proceeded to the school hall for our graduation ceremony. It was a long and dragy one but it was overall fun. Because i was sitting next to Hafiz and Naddy, so we got to talk with each other and make fun of other people. And then, at this point of the time, Naddy just had to mention to me that that the guy who was giving his speech on the stage had his hair like a 'tikus mondok'. I'm not sure what that is in English but it surely reminded me of a joke we used to laugh to about a year ago.

And when the ceremony ended, wah, people got all teary. I didn't want to cry. But after hugging Farah, it made me realised that this is almost the end of our secondary school life. And everytime when i hugged somebody, my words got choked and i didn't get to say what i wanted to them. I cried so hard when it comes to Sheila. She seriously made me so emotional when her words started coming out of her mouth. That girl ar really made me cry so hard that i didn't get to take picture with the whole class. And it was also saddening when i hugged Hafiz. Although we have been friends since primary 1, he still want to see me in sec 5. Wah, we even made a promise to go sec 5 together gether. It really sank my heart to let go of these people.

About the future, i don't know how it will turn out to be. But one thing's for sure is that i am not ready. I'm not yet ready for the whole world. I am still not ready of 'letting go of my mother's hand'. I'm not ready to roam the world freely. I feel as if i still need to hold my mother's hand when crossing the road. Well, i'm sure you get what i mean by that.

Now, i need to get back to my art.
Wah, just when i'm thought i got rid of art.
It came back chasing me.


.e.n.d.

Exhilarated.

There is no word in this world can describe how i'm feeling right now.
And all thanks to Asy'Ari

Unholy Confession.

This one just made me want it more & more.



“This is the first time I’ve ever really got to see A7X
in action as our fans, family and friends get to. It was
honestly a magical night to headline the arena that I
saw my first ever concert at 18 years prior. Seeing the
girls dance to ‘Scream’ on the DVD was a particular
treat, as my back was towards them while I was playing.
I’ve been in the band since day one and, watching this, I
realized that I am also one of the biggest fans of my
friends and bandmates onstage beside me. I hope you
all enjoy it as I have. O doyle rulz.” - Zacky V.