"desire leaves me numb to all the pain surrounding me
storms will arise to condemn me
I will not die before her eyes...
it ends tonight"
- The Third Temptation Of Paris - Alesana
Howdy! Remember when i say that i hate posting while in a bad mood. Well, it's not it. It's the other side of me, my alter ego. I just realised that there's this other person that is totally the opposite of me.
The one who always has a frown on her face. The one who thinks that smiling is just a waste of time. The one who thinks that the world is unfair. Who thinks that her family hates her. The one who thinks that the world should end. The one who always thinks that pain is the best way to fix everything. The quiet one. The sombong one. Who thinks that posers should be fucked and raped till death. The one who is always in depression. She's always the one to think that happiness will not come knocking on her doors.
The one that people hate...
Then there's this whole other side of me. The merepek one. The one who always has a smile on her face. The one who people thinks she rocks. The one who is sabar. The one who is crazy about Synyster Gates. The one that love Maths and don't care about the other subjects. The cheerful one. The listener one. The noisy one. The kpo one.
The one that people love...
And i think i should name her. Name her with some evil. Something sinister. Something "devil-ish". Something like... Like, Shertan? That's what they used to call me when we were in Secondary 2. The two devils. Sherry and Aidil. Yeah, I'll call her Shertan. And it is pronounced with the American slang. Not the Malay slang. Get what i mean?
I hate it whenever my mother say i have my father characteristics. Or should i say, i behave like my father. Fuck that! I'm nothing like him! My mom would be,"She has my face but behaves like her father", to her friend or whoever that has no concern of knowing me. It's just not true! I'm not! I'm not! I'm not! OK?! And i don't fucking wanna hear his name anymore. That son of a bitch! Who ruin our life. Fuck him! Call me rude if you want to.
Screw the world!
Happy Stalking!
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