Well hello dick heads! It's been some time since i have updated properly, so here i am. I'm just lucky to be breathing still. I never thought i would survive today.
Today, my mother dragged me to geylang. Actually yesterday ar because 2 o'clock in the morning already. But whatever. I was suppose to be studying for my exams on Monday but, my mother literally dragged me to geylang today. And man, i HATE it. If you know me well enough, you would already know that i hate crowds. I hate crowded places. I HATE places with ALOT of people. Yes, let me repeat it again, I HATE CROWDS.
I was freaking out in the taxi when i saw how crowded Geylang was. But too bad, there was no way of turning back. Being in a subconscious state, i manage to survive the day. My mom brought a few clothes for my brother first because his was cheap and easy to choose from. He is not the picky type of person, where else i was. Mom brought him like 4 pieces of clothes. Genuinely speaking, i wasn't jealous. I couldn't care less of owning a 'Baju Kurong'(traditional costume). Being a fussy person as i am, i took some time to find my baju kurong. And everytime i came across the one that i wanted, i would ask how much it cost. And if it exceeds $40 i wouldn't buy it. Then i came across this Kebaya(yet another traditional costume) and i really like it. And it cost $56++. I said no to it. My mom was pissed alright. She said it was an OK price. OK price?! I almost got into an agrument with my mom about buying something expensive that i'll probably gonna wear it once or twice.
Then, my mom brought me to this shop and ask me to try on this particular baju kurong. I was quite pleased with it but i had an issue of choosing the colour of the baju kurong. My cousin told me to get the white one, while my mother told me to get the blue one. But i sticked to one colour, black. Then as usual, i asked my mother the cost of the baju kurong. But she tired changing the subject and told me to wait outside. When she already paid for it, i asked how much it was and i was damn shocked when she said $90. $90 leh! Wah, i seriously felt guilty buying that baju kurong. But my mom kept saying it's ok. OK?! $90 is not NOT ok, ok!
Imagine how many things i can spent with that $90. Walau! i wish i could return the baju kurong and get the money back. Still, my mother insist on buying another baju kurong. After that $90 baju kurong, how could i want to buy another one?! I kept refusing everytime she tried to make me buy another one. So what if i only have one baju kurong, i don't care. I'm not a huge fan of baju kurong. Wah, i seriously feel bad buying that damn expensive baju kurong.
Ok, enough about the baju kurong and back to the part of me hating huge crowds. As we all know, Geylang will forever be packed with people. And when it comes to these kind of situation, people may get selfish and fucking rude. And i can't tolerate people who are rude. It really pisses me off when people accidentally pushed me without saying sorry and continued walking with thier nose up high. Wah, damn arrogant! Some even gave the 'what the fuck,bitch?!' look. Tsk tsk tsk. The nerves of some people.
When it got worse and people just wont give way, i literally started to push them. I'm too tired to elaborate on that. Overall, i'm just glad i manage to survive today. And i would rather kill myself if i were to go to Geylang again. Yes, i hate Geylang THAT much.
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Oh great, i lost another of my favourite guitar pick.
DAMN! I have no idea how many times i have lost my picks.
And i still hate myself for losing my lucky 13 guitar pick my brother brought me.
Best guitar pick EVER.
Right...
I'm gonna turn myself in now.
Got alot to study tomorrow.
DAMN IT!
.e.n.d.
Always is, never was
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I Miss You.
"Hey dad
I'm writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart"
- Emotionless - Good Charlotte
.e.n.d.
I'm writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart"
- Emotionless - Good Charlotte
I'm starting to feel the feeling when you missed someone you hate.
Do you get me?
Do you get me?
.e.n.d.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
GRADUATED!
18th of September, which is today, marked the day that i realised that it is the start of a new beginning. And yes, we graduated today. 4 years ago, i thought getting to sec 4 would be like forever. But now i've realise that time really flies. It felt as if it was only a year ago that i got into Springfield Secondary School. And it's very hard for me to part away from the people that i'm really comfortable with.
After a long, tiring, dramatic day at school, we finally had to register our names and proceeded to the school hall for our graduation ceremony. It was a long and dragy one but it was overall fun. Because i was sitting next to Hafiz and Naddy, so we got to talk with each other and make fun of other people. And then, at this point of the time, Naddy just had to mention to me that that the guy who was giving his speech on the stage had his hair like a 'tikus mondok'. I'm not sure what that is in English but it surely reminded me of a joke we used to laugh to about a year ago.
And when the ceremony ended, wah, people got all teary. I didn't want to cry. But after hugging Farah, it made me realised that this is almost the end of our secondary school life. And everytime when i hugged somebody, my words got choked and i didn't get to say what i wanted to them. I cried so hard when it comes to Sheila. She seriously made me so emotional when her words started coming out of her mouth. That girl ar really made me cry so hard that i didn't get to take picture with the whole class. And it was also saddening when i hugged Hafiz. Although we have been friends since primary 1, he still want to see me in sec 5. Wah, we even made a promise to go sec 5 together gether. It really sank my heart to let go of these people.
About the future, i don't know how it will turn out to be. But one thing's for sure is that i am not ready. I'm not yet ready for the whole world. I am still not ready of 'letting go of my mother's hand'. I'm not ready to roam the world freely. I feel as if i still need to hold my mother's hand when crossing the road. Well, i'm sure you get what i mean by that.
Now, i need to get back to my art.
Wah, just when i'm thought i got rid of art.
It came back chasing me.
.e.n.d.
After a long, tiring, dramatic day at school, we finally had to register our names and proceeded to the school hall for our graduation ceremony. It was a long and dragy one but it was overall fun. Because i was sitting next to Hafiz and Naddy, so we got to talk with each other and make fun of other people. And then, at this point of the time, Naddy just had to mention to me that that the guy who was giving his speech on the stage had his hair like a 'tikus mondok'. I'm not sure what that is in English but it surely reminded me of a joke we used to laugh to about a year ago.
And when the ceremony ended, wah, people got all teary. I didn't want to cry. But after hugging Farah, it made me realised that this is almost the end of our secondary school life. And everytime when i hugged somebody, my words got choked and i didn't get to say what i wanted to them. I cried so hard when it comes to Sheila. She seriously made me so emotional when her words started coming out of her mouth. That girl ar really made me cry so hard that i didn't get to take picture with the whole class. And it was also saddening when i hugged Hafiz. Although we have been friends since primary 1, he still want to see me in sec 5. Wah, we even made a promise to go sec 5 together gether. It really sank my heart to let go of these people.
About the future, i don't know how it will turn out to be. But one thing's for sure is that i am not ready. I'm not yet ready for the whole world. I am still not ready of 'letting go of my mother's hand'. I'm not ready to roam the world freely. I feel as if i still need to hold my mother's hand when crossing the road. Well, i'm sure you get what i mean by that.
Now, i need to get back to my art.
Wah, just when i'm thought i got rid of art.
It came back chasing me.
.e.n.d.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Exhilarated.
There is no word in this world can describe how i'm feeling right now.
And all thanks to Asy'Ari
And all thanks to Asy'Ari
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Unholy Confession.
This one just made me want it more & more.
“This is the first time I’ve ever really got to see A7X
in action as our fans, family and friends get to. It was
honestly a magical night to headline the arena that I
saw my first ever concert at 18 years prior. Seeing the
girls dance to ‘Scream’ on the DVD was a particular
treat, as my back was towards them while I was playing.
I’ve been in the band since day one and, watching this, I
realized that I am also one of the biggest fans of my
friends and bandmates onstage beside me. I hope you
all enjoy it as I have. O doyle rulz.” - Zacky V.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Possibilities.
"I need the product of your fears
In the form of tears
It's the only way I can survive
It breaks my heart to see you crying, baby
It's the only way I'll stay alive
Green eyes, blue skies
Natural disasters when she cries
Green eyes, they're mine
It's only a matter of time."
- Time - Cute Is What We Aim For
HELLO!
Screw the previous post. I am in a relatively good mood today. School was fun today. Although i was abit moody in the morning, i was psyched by the third period. Art was a bore. I literaly talked to Mira for the whole two periods. I seriously can't think of any idea for my Art. I thought of doing Mutant but i suck at drawing and painting humans. Don't know ley. I just hope i could think of something come Tuesday.
So, as you all know, we already did our English, Malay and Social Studies papers. That means we have alot of free periods and these free periods are for us to self-study. For the past few days, we have been doing Maths non stop. I'm not sure what the others did, but the people around me was so into Maths. But today, we were like talking all the way. Serious sak. Farah, Fadzlon and me talked about random stuff. From cable vision to POSSIBILITIES to hairs. Wah, I never knew Fadzlon thinks about posibilities. But all of his possibilities are nonsensical. He thinks way too out of the frame. But funny.
Then came recess, I literally feel like killing Fadzlon. Wah, damn annoying siak that boy. I was peacefully playing this game on Hafiz's psp and then when he came into the classroom, he immediately started to disturb me. And since then, he never stop disturbing me. So the nakal.
Today was such an awesome day. The non stop laughing with Farah, listening to fadzlon's nonsensical thoughts, disturbing people. Definately a day to remember. And i feel sad having to know that i only have a week to go with these crazy boobs. And i love them all. :)
.e.n.d.
In the form of tears
It's the only way I can survive
It breaks my heart to see you crying, baby
It's the only way I'll stay alive
Green eyes, blue skies
Natural disasters when she cries
Green eyes, they're mine
It's only a matter of time."
- Time - Cute Is What We Aim For
HELLO!
Screw the previous post. I am in a relatively good mood today. School was fun today. Although i was abit moody in the morning, i was psyched by the third period. Art was a bore. I literaly talked to Mira for the whole two periods. I seriously can't think of any idea for my Art. I thought of doing Mutant but i suck at drawing and painting humans. Don't know ley. I just hope i could think of something come Tuesday.
So, as you all know, we already did our English, Malay and Social Studies papers. That means we have alot of free periods and these free periods are for us to self-study. For the past few days, we have been doing Maths non stop. I'm not sure what the others did, but the people around me was so into Maths. But today, we were like talking all the way. Serious sak. Farah, Fadzlon and me talked about random stuff. From cable vision to POSSIBILITIES to hairs. Wah, I never knew Fadzlon thinks about posibilities. But all of his possibilities are nonsensical. He thinks way too out of the frame. But funny.
Then came recess, I literally feel like killing Fadzlon. Wah, damn annoying siak that boy. I was peacefully playing this game on Hafiz's psp and then when he came into the classroom, he immediately started to disturb me. And since then, he never stop disturbing me. So the nakal.
Today was such an awesome day. The non stop laughing with Farah, listening to fadzlon's nonsensical thoughts, disturbing people. Definately a day to remember. And i feel sad having to know that i only have a week to go with these crazy boobs. And i love them all. :)
.e.n.d.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
My uncle Johnny did cocaine.
"Cuz I don't wanna be like this,
I've been running these streets for too long now,
I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now.
But the further I go, I wanna go home"
- The Dairy - Hollywood Undead
Wah, this is the stupidest joke ever. Still we find it funny. Don't know why ley. But it's damn funny. Kan Madden?! I can instantly laugh whenever she reminded me of this incident. Actually right, i was so paisey that i got it wrong. The answer was actually Sam's Town. But the word Uncle Johnny came out of my mouth out of nowhere. And she took it as a joke. Actually quite funny ar.
Moving On...
I don't see a point of going to school these days. I came to school only because of my attendance. And i still think it's a waste of my time. But i still need help with my Chemistry. I need to start it all over again. I can't even remember and understand a single thing. But it seems like Mdm Zulaiha kept giving us worksheets. And believe me, trying to do something that you don't understand really sets my mood off. No matter how many times i try reading it over and over again. I still can't understand. I seriously need help with Chemistry! I need someone to teach me. I need someone who can really make me understand what the fuck is CHEMISTRY!
.e.n.d.
I've been running these streets for too long now,
I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now.
But the further I go, I wanna go home"
- The Dairy - Hollywood Undead
Farah: "Eh, The Killers nyer lastest album ape ar?"
Me: "Uncle Johnny."
Wah, this is the stupidest joke ever. Still we find it funny. Don't know why ley. But it's damn funny. Kan Madden?! I can instantly laugh whenever she reminded me of this incident. Actually right, i was so paisey that i got it wrong. The answer was actually Sam's Town. But the word Uncle Johnny came out of my mouth out of nowhere. And she took it as a joke. Actually quite funny ar.
Moving On...
I don't see a point of going to school these days. I came to school only because of my attendance. And i still think it's a waste of my time. But i still need help with my Chemistry. I need to start it all over again. I can't even remember and understand a single thing. But it seems like Mdm Zulaiha kept giving us worksheets. And believe me, trying to do something that you don't understand really sets my mood off. No matter how many times i try reading it over and over again. I still can't understand. I seriously need help with Chemistry! I need someone to teach me. I need someone who can really make me understand what the fuck is CHEMISTRY!
.e.n.d.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
16 September 2008
Fuck, i cannot wait for this!
I seriously need my brother to pre-order it for me!
I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT FOR IT!
.e.n.d.
Friday, September 05, 2008
N levels
"I loved you, you made me, hate me. You gave me, hate, see?. It saved me and these tears are deadly. You feel that? I rip back, everytime you tried to steal that.You feel bad? you feel sad? Im sorry, hell no f**k that! It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife. This strife it dies, this life and these lies. And these lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too, remember I loved you!"
- Black Dahlia - Hollywood Undead
Greetings! These few days have been quite depressing for me. The N levels are freaking killing me. I have no idea what i wrote for my malay composition. After reading it over and over again, i still have no idea what i was writing. Paper 2 was... i can't even say if it's easy or difficult. That's it for malay. I have no hope of getting a 4 for malay.I know i should aim higher. But i only got a 5 for my prelims. So, the chances of me getting a 2 or 1 is NEVER.
Yes. This is how i studied for my Social Studies. I don't have a huge whiteboard. So i turn the floor in my bedroom into a huge whiteboard. Yes, i do believe that we can remember things better by writing it down rather than trying to memorising it. Wah, semangat giler belaja Conflict in Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland. In the end, none of it came out on the SEQ section. And i did the SBQ badly. Again, no hope of passing Social Studies. English was alright. I used up the whole of 3hr 45mins finishing up both papers. I dare not sleep. Wah, i don't want to talk about my N levels. It only spoils my mood.
.e.n.d.
p.s i am loving HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD!
- Black Dahlia - Hollywood Undead
Greetings! These few days have been quite depressing for me. The N levels are freaking killing me. I have no idea what i wrote for my malay composition. After reading it over and over again, i still have no idea what i was writing. Paper 2 was... i can't even say if it's easy or difficult. That's it for malay. I have no hope of getting a 4 for malay.I know i should aim higher. But i only got a 5 for my prelims. So, the chances of me getting a 2 or 1 is NEVER.
Yes. This is how i studied for my Social Studies. I don't have a huge whiteboard. So i turn the floor in my bedroom into a huge whiteboard. Yes, i do believe that we can remember things better by writing it down rather than trying to memorising it. Wah, semangat giler belaja Conflict in Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland. In the end, none of it came out on the SEQ section. And i did the SBQ badly. Again, no hope of passing Social Studies. English was alright. I used up the whole of 3hr 45mins finishing up both papers. I dare not sleep. Wah, i don't want to talk about my N levels. It only spoils my mood.
.e.n.d.
p.s i am loving HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD!
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