Yesterday, i made my mother cry.
For the first time in my life, i made her cry with tears of joy. Or i think she only cried because i was bawling like crazy when i called her. It’s safe to say that i finally made it. I finally achieved something that i never thought i could.
I think i did good. But my Malay pulled me down so bad. Really bad. Damn it! But Alhamdulillah, i’m happy with what i got. I did my very best. I put all my heart on this and i finally got what i want. Thank you Allah.
I woke up this morning with a big smile smacked on my face. It reminds me of my Sec 5 days. All the endless ranting about my Malay(still as bad as before). Tons of hours i spent on Art. Trying to cramp in as many Physics and Chemistry facts as possible. Practicing on as many Maths papers as possible. And i did it all by myself. I couldn’t get a tutor cause’ my mother could not afford it. I never had tuition classes. But hard work pays. And so does spending hours studying under the void deck with friends.
I really thank my mother for all the moral support she has given during the past year. Even though she hate the fact that i hardly have the time do house chores, she gave in. Although everyday i’m never home early, she understood. I pass my O level just for my mother because she’s been there from the beginning. And to prove to some people who looked down on her. Doesn’t mean my mother is illiterate, that doesn’t make me stupid. Because of her, i made it through. Now what say you?!
I’m not asking for any gift from her for passing my O’s cause’ she has given me a lot in the past year. I can’t thank her more. Thank you Allah. Everyday i pray to You to give me the strength and confidence to do my O’s. And my prayers have definitely been heard. Amin. Thank you to my brothers. Thank you Fazli, for being very supportive about my passion for Art. Thank you Firdaus. I know you’re happy for me even though you always make fun of my bad spelling and my atrocious malay. And thank you to my friends who have always been there for me. THANK YOU!
Right now, i have no idea what i should do. Too many choices. My heart wants what i want. Art School. But… T_T
