OMG. I'VE JUST READ MY ARCHIVES AND... I... CAN'T... EVEN...














BYE. 

foREVer

Nothing lasts forever, for all good things it's true
I'd rather trade it all while somehow saving you

A year have gone by, yet it feels as if it was only yesterday that you left this world.
As a fan, thank you. Thank you for all the music you have gave us. Thank you for sharing with the world your talent. I thank you for making a huge impact in my life. Have i not known you, i wouldn't be the person i am today. You gave me strength through the songs you've wrote. Thank you.

Forever gone but never forgotten.
Your legacy still lives on.

Redemption

If i ever get a piano/keyboard, the first song i'm gonna learn and play is Muse's, Exogenesis Symphony Part 3 (Redemption), until i cry my eyes out! The song is so beautiful in so many different ways.

My one goal in life is to learn to play the piano. And i will, someday soon.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, FARAH FATIN!!!
Love you!

Yay! Finally gave Farah her birthday gift.
I was dying trying to keep this as a secret from her.
Anyways, took 2 hours to paint this and tried a new technique and style.
I love this.

"The society is just one big ball of bullshit. Telling people what to do and what not to do. What to wear and what not to wear. What is beautiful and what isn't beautiful. There’s only two type of people in this world. Either you’re fake or you’re for real. Your call."

- Sherry Sharmila

For Real

Yesterday my mom told me that she bummed into one of her old friends. Let's call her BR. So apparently me, my mom and my brothers used to stay at BR's place. Back when my father kicked us out from our house.

Times were hard back then. We practically moved a lot because we had no where to live. And my mom had to work like 12 hours a day just to earn money for our school pocket money. I was in primary 4 then and my elder brother was just starting his first year in poly. So yeah, we moved a lot and we were practically broke. So finally we got a place to settle which is BR's place.

And you have no idea how much I hated staying there. To be honest, back then I was a slacker. In school, I am what people call 'slow'. I hated studying. I was lazy. One time, I even lied to my mother saying that I went to school, but I went to the theme park instead. Yes, I was that hardcore. Not that I am proud of myself.

But yeah, for some reason BR hated me and always treated me bad. She favored my younger brother more than me. I was always ganged up by them - she, her son and even my younger brother(sometimes). Sometimes, they won't let me eat until my mom came back from work. My brother got to watch tv while all i get to do was sit in the room all day and stare into space. They wouldn't even let me to go out after the whole theme park incident. Of course they always act nice to my mother.

They always discriminate me and treated me like shit. She even called me stupid and slow because according to her, her son was a fucking genius - he was in the EM1 stream. I was in EM2. Even till today, she have never asked about me. Whenever she met my mom, she always ask about my brother's wellbeing, never me. Not that I care.

But it's people like these that makes me who I am today. She discriminated and called me stupid, now look where I am. She thought her son was a fucking genius, turns out, he mixed and was influenced with the bad kids. I now stand taller than her son - education wise.

This is why I'm not giving up. I'm here to show people what I'm capable of. I'm gonna rub all of my success on you people's face. People who discriminate and look down on me. How do you like me now, bitch?!

OMG I THINK I'VE JUST FIGURED OUT THE HIDDEN MEANING TO INCEPTION.
I THINK IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH MK ULTRA.


Actually, i've figured it out a few days back but never got to blogging about it.
But yeah. I hate how nowadays, whenever i'm watching movies, tv shows, music videos, all i do is to look for hidden messages. It's like my eyes are trained to see what other people don't see.
DAMN YOU ILLUMINATSSS!

What?

You know what?

If it wasn’t Avenged Sevenfold in the first place.

It could have been Muse.

And if it wasn’t Synyster Gates in the first place.

It probably could have been Matthew Bellamy. :D

I know this have got to be the most corniest post ever. But…

Yes, i have a thing with man who plays guitar and piano and sing. :D

Oh hai. Yesterday was well spent with FarahF. You know, everytime we're together, random shit just happen to us. Like yesterday, we saw Michael Jackson. No kid. Black Michael Jackson. Take the free shuttle bus to ikea. You might see him. Wah, sial ah, do you know how excited i was to see him? I know he's not the real Michael, but, he freaking looks like Michael! The hair, the shades, the smile. The whole journey i was staring at him, you know. Ah, must marry him.

So we got to Ikea, and ate hotdogs. Yes, because thier hotdogs are only $1. I know, we're cheapskate. Then bused down to my house and chillex. Initial plan was to paint but we Tumblr-ed and laughed the whole day. Then she went home.

Before meeting that fucker, i had my submission due that morning. Was pretty satisfied with my work. Didn't had much sleep for 3 nights straight. As soon as Farah went home, i knocked out. Even that morning while having brunch with my friends, i couldn't open my eyes. And well, now i've just woken up to a 5 hrs nap. Tsk tsk tsk.

I just hope i pass this module. I gave a 110% effort for this module. The last module, ADT, was shit. I'm still not giving up on hopes of getting a 3.5 GPA. Project 1 is coming in 2 weeks time, and i'm scared as fuck. But, I'm not giving up.

Lilly: You can't design your life like a building, it doesn't work that way.You just, have to live it and it will design itself

Ted: So i should just do nothing?

Lilly: No, listen to what the world is telling you to do and take the leap.

- How I Met Your Mother

SUBMISSION WEEK!
The week i dreaded the most.
The week where the printing shop's line resembles that of the Great Wall of China.
The week where sleep becomes my enemy.
The week where i start to appreciate my own bed more (even if i don't have one).
The week where everybody's rushing just to finish on time.
The week where the studio's hectic as ever.
The week where everybody's mind is only set to one thing.
The end of a block.

The feeling of joy the moment you submit your work. Yes, it's that kind of joy you get when you pass your O's.
Well, for me at least.

Busy busy busy

Yes, I'm a designer and i have ugly handwriting.
You got a problem with that?

I love these guys.