I was playing around with Photoshop last night and ended up making that banner.
I wanna get back to web designing.
Used to spend hours learning tricks and technique of Photoshop all by myself.
Now i can't even remember a single thing about HTMLs.
I think i'm gonna start learning from scratch again.

So this is how it feels, huh?
To care for someone.
It's fucking tiring thinking about you everyday.
And it just sucks that I can't do anything about it.
I never want to jeopardise our friendship.
But keeping it inside is driving me insane.
I don't want to lose you.
I just want to be with you.
I don't know. This is not me.
You bring out the vulnerable side of me.

See, this is what happens when it's 3.40 in the morning and I can't go to sleep.
Should have gotten a diary.
This is not me. Fuck!

He reminds me of someone.
Someone who came and left.
Glad to know that someone.

Ok, i've made a plan.
I would only start backpacking and traveling, only when my mother is gone (touch wood!).
I've made a promise to myself that i would take care of her until she lay in peace.
There's no one else left here but her.
So what's the point of staying when she's gone?

I've never thought of settling down.
I've seen what my mom had went through and i don't think i'm as strong as her.
I'm afraid. Until today, i still think that all men are the same.
I want to travel. I want to see the world.

But we'll see what god have planned for me.
Whatever it is, i'm still leaving.

So there's this study trip to Spain during the 2 weeks break.
SPAIN
Apparently it's for the IAD and RHD but they have a few seats for EVD.
But the thing is we have to fork out about $2800 not including our own expenses - shopping and meals.
:(
Besides, my passport is dead. And where to dig up $2800?! So no point in dreaming of going to Spain.
But hais... I really wanna see and study Spain's architecture.

This breaks my heart.
I hate the fact that money is ALWAYS standing in the way of my dreams.
:(