To be honest, this is what i want to do in life. To paint and draw my life away. I don't mind living poor but as long as i'm happy. And drawing and painting gives me that; happiness.
I love waking up and the first thing i think about is drawing/painting. And when i paint, it feels as if the whole world stops and my mind goes blank. Like there's nothing to worry about. Like the whole world is a better place. I know this sounds exaggerated, but that's how i feel. I don't know. You'll get what i mean when you found the one thing that makes you happy.
It's hard sometimes always being the odd one out. You're always made fun of and people always talk about you and won't take you seriously. Sometimes it feels like i'm living in a world of my own and it's hard to communicate with people. It's hard to relate to people, hard to make them understand you. And all i can do is to distance myself from them. It's not that i don't try, i tried but i'm tired. Tired of trying to fit in. Tired of making people understand me.
And that's why i turn to drawing/painting. 'Cause it's the one thing where i can pour my feelings out. I'd rather spend hours sitting by myself and paint than go out gallivanting. I know i sound like a lonesome loser but who cares?
