"desire leaves me numb to all the pain surrounding me
storms will arise to condemn me
I will not die before her eyes...
it ends tonight"
- The Third Temptation Of Paris - Alesana

Howdy! Remember when i say that i hate posting while in a bad mood. Well, it's not it. It's the other side of me, my alter ego. I just realised that there's this other person that is totally the opposite of me.

The one who always has a frown on her face. The one who thinks that smiling is just a waste of time. The one who thinks that the world is unfair. Who thinks that her family hates her. The one who thinks that the world should end. The one who always thinks that pain is the best way to fix everything. The quiet one. The sombong one. Who thinks that posers should be fucked and raped till death. The one who is always in depression. She's always the one to think that happiness will not come knocking on her doors.
The one that people hate...

Then there's this whole other side of me. The merepek one. The one who always has a smile on her face. The one who people thinks she rocks. The one who is sabar. The one who is crazy about Synyster Gates. The one that love Maths and don't care about the other subjects. The cheerful one. The listener one. The noisy one. The kpo one.
The one that people love...

And i think i should name her. Name her with some evil. Something sinister. Something "devil-ish". Something like... Like, Shertan? That's what they used to call me when we were in Secondary 2. The two devils. Sherry and Aidil. Yeah, I'll call her Shertan. And it is pronounced with the American slang. Not the Malay slang. Get what i mean?

I hate it whenever my mother say i have my father characteristics. Or should i say, i behave like my father. Fuck that! I'm nothing like him! My mom would be,"She has my face but behaves like her father", to her friend or whoever that has no concern of knowing me. It's just not true! I'm not! I'm not! I'm not! OK?! And i don't fucking wanna hear his name anymore. That son of a bitch! Who ruin our life. Fuck him! Call me rude if you want to.

Screw the world!

Happy Stalking!
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Howdy! It's Saturday and it's another "Maths" day. Gah! I love maths but sometimes it's stressing me out. But i like solving problems. Like, you really have to crack your brain to solve a question. Just a question. Now, that's the best pain. Blah...

As pernomal. We met at McDonalds at 8. The one at the CC. And A.keys were the first one there. And i reach there at 8 o'clock SHARP! Not a minute late! Muahaha! And yes, I am proud of myself. I and A.Keys ordered our food first cause the others was late and told us to eat first. Ape lagik! Kite makan ar!

Pancakes were mine, Madden and Nadia's breakfast. AND! My pancakes were sinking! Yes, pancakes do sink, ok! FYI. Pancakes absorb honey and that makes the pancake heavy therefore it cause the pancake to sink. Ok, here's the whole story. Madden and i hate pouring the syrup on our pancakes. So, we were dipping our pancakes with honey which was in a some kind of a container. I was using my forks while Madden prefer using her hands. So, i was dipping my pancake in the syrup and it just so happens that my pancake fall into my syrup.

Me: ARGH! Pancake aku sinking!

It was crazy, man! Madden was laughing like crazy.

Happy Stalking!
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"Dust the apple off, savor each bite
And deep inside you know Adam was right
lust and power, indulgence, no fear
Left with his sins, how does this end?
We won't be here tomorrow,
hold on to me for one last time"
- The Wicked End - Avenged Sevenfold

The Reverend...

I just find him attractive. Don't you think so?

Blah...
Now, where are my wishes?

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"But I wanted more for you.

You can't go on this way.

And now I see it all fall through.

We pray for better days."

-Shattered By Broken Dreams - Avenged Sevenfold

those eyes...(*sighs*)

screw the world!
now, wish me luck or die, Motherfuckers!

die!die!die!

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Howdy. Before i splat out anything, I have to confess out something. I love Maths! Yes! Me! I love Maths. Sure, Maths can be stressing. But solving the problem is the best part. Not forgetting, movie tickets! Those tickets are mine, Madden! Mine, i tell you! Muahaha!

Ok, ok. Enough of all the Maths thingy. I kept on laughing to myself whenever I think of Madden. And my mom think i'm going bonkers. Blah.

It's Labour Day, Today! And i don't even know what Labour Day meant. Well, at least people have heard of Labour Day not like Earth Day. 8 years of my school life i've never heard of Earth Day. Gah!


Happy Stalking!
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