Ok, i've made a plan.
I would only start backpacking and traveling, only when my mother is gone (touch wood!).
I've made a promise to myself that i would take care of her until she lay in peace.
There's no one else left here but her.
So what's the point of staying when she's gone?

I've never thought of settling down.
I've seen what my mom had went through and i don't think i'm as strong as her.
I'm afraid. Until today, i still think that all men are the same.
I want to travel. I want to see the world.

But we'll see what god have planned for me.
Whatever it is, i'm still leaving.

So there's this study trip to Spain during the 2 weeks break.
SPAIN
Apparently it's for the IAD and RHD but they have a few seats for EVD.
But the thing is we have to fork out about $2800 not including our own expenses - shopping and meals.
:(
Besides, my passport is dead. And where to dig up $2800?! So no point in dreaming of going to Spain.
But hais... I really wanna see and study Spain's architecture.

This breaks my heart.
I hate the fact that money is ALWAYS standing in the way of my dreams.
:(

So i told my mom the other day that i don't want to live and work in Singapore.
And do you know what she said?

"Can, only if we move to India."

Really? Of all places, she wants to live in India?!
But she was really skeptical about the whole idea of living aboard.
I don't know, when i was younger, i'd always dream of living abroad.
But now, i'm seriously considering it.
I'm 19, i'm allowed to make my own decisions right?

But...

Ciao. Come stai?
Io sono a scuola.
Sono le dieci di sera.
Mi piace molto Italiana.
Io voglio abitare in Italia.
Mi annoio!
Ciao!