Doppelganger.

"So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal"
Animal I Have Become - Three Days Grace

I'm changing again. I'm back to the way i used to be. I'm changing to a person who i don't want to be. A person that i never want to be but there's no way of escaping it. Like, it's taking over me. I never want this. I thought i have change, but she kept on coming back to me.
It's like, i was curse to have her in me all my life.

I thought i have left that other side of me ages ago. I never thought she would come back and take over my life again. I remembered how i use to be. I was never happy. I never smile. I was cold, numb. I was always depress. I always kept things to myself. I was a pessimist. I never really talk to people. I was a social outcast. I was suicidal. I used to cut my myself. I had Synyster Gates' name scrawled across my arm, for fuck's sake! I was gullible. I did things without thinking about it first.

But then i came to my senses. I had to change. I had to grow up. And i did change. I was happy. I was smiling again. I learned to appreciate things. I could feel. I had emotions. But i was still unsociable - i figured that it was something i'm stuck with. But still, i was OK. I was whole. I was somebody else. Someone different. Someone the opposite of me.

But then something happened, and she came back knocking on my doors. Little did i knew, she was conquering me again. I had no choice but to her let take over me. Because i'm coward enough to face reality. Coward enough to be in the situation i'm in right now.


This could be the last of.... me.

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