You know, up till today i haven't figure out what i wanna do in life.I don't have a real profession that i really want to dream and chase about. I have a few in mind but those aren't the ones that i REALLY want to pursue. I don't want to work for the government. I don't want to be told what to do. I want to be my own boss.
Does that seem too far-fetched?
A teacher, an architect, an interior designer, a tattoo artist.
When I was a kid, I wanted to be teacher.
Why? Because every parent want their children to be teachers or doctors or lawyers. Or maybe I watched too much tv.
But I really wanted to be a teacher. I used to pretend I was teaching a class of 40 when actually i'm only talking to myself. Of course I was confident about teaching, little did I know, in real life you have to stand in front of a class and teach real people. You're no longer taking to yourself. I am a social outcast. And I am not proud of it. I hardly talk to new people. What makes you think I'd make a good teacher? Another reason as to why I wanted to be a teacher is because of money. Yes, money have been the predominant issue I have my whole life. Well, at least the whole of my 18 years of existence. So I thought by becoming a teacher, I'd be rich someday. But I don't want to be a teacher my whole life.
How I came about of becoming an architect and an interior designer? Ok, this may sound pretty lame and stupid. Don't laugh!
The reason why I wanted to be an architect or an interior designer is because of The Sims. Yes, as in the game. Whenever I play the game, I love building and designing houses. I suck at keeping my Sims alive. So my Sims pretty much moves in and out of houses for their whole lifetime. So yeah, that's how it came about. But life's no game, kid.
Becoming a tattoo artist is a whole other story. Ever since I got into secondary 4, I became more serious about becoming an artist. And at that point of time, I was really interested in body art, which is tattooing. I watch a lot of tattooing shows and I have so much respect for all the tattooist out there. It takes a lot to become a tattooist. Because you're imprinting an artwork on a person's body, permanently. There's not a room for one tiny mistake. Some people may think tattooing is about modifying and coloring your body permanently. But to me, it's a form of art. It's a form of medium you could use to express your feelings and emotions; to showcase your talent. And it takes a lot of talent to really become a tattooist.
As much as I want to be a tattoo artist, I'll never do anything that's against my religion. But still, I have so much respect for tattooist.
Ok, I know I don't seem like the religious kind of person. But know this, I will never ever, insyallah, go against my religion. For example, tattooing, drinking, etc. No matter how much I change, I will never forget who I am or what my religion is. Even though I have issues with the Malay community, I will never forget where I come from. Insyallah.
Whoa, sidetracked.
So my point is, I don't have any passion for all of these job profession. What I'm passionate about? Hmm...
